It was Love Indeed

..The right person you meet at the right time..

He's the stranger-turned-best-friend. He is the one that made you realize why things didn't work out previously. He's the one that made the past heartbreak worthwhile. He's the boy who doesn't just send you home, but enters home hand-in-hand with you. He's the boy you date at home. The one you cuddle at home while watching movies. He's the one who holds your hand in town when you're all glamorously made up but he's also the one who cuddles you in bed without make up. Love knows inside out. He always knows when you need a shoulder to lean on, an ear to rant to, or a hand to reach out to. He's the boy you're proud to bring home to your parents. He's protective like your father, annoying like your brother but loving like no other. He's the one you see your future with. He's the one you willingly forsake all other guys for. For the lucky girl, Love is also the guy you grow old with. For the average girl, Love simply is the one that got away.

Stuck like a sausage

Words after words,
Orders after orders,
Questions after questions,
Blames after blames,

Destruction of me.

Words, whom spoken by me, eventually led to hurting me back. It has never been easy, and it has been staying up to this level since before, and then. And my sins, they are punishing me back. Demanding a thing that even I myself could not afford to pay back. A misery that no one will understand, scoldings after scoldings even if I tried to open up to someone called a person, a human.

Blames after blames, how may times do I need to pretend that I am okay. Instead, hiding those tears, those burdens up to this extent. Yes, no one..*stop*
Sighs after sighs, no one will really hear. Pretending to hear, there is a lot. Lots of hard-to-believe soul, friends who vowed a promise before that they will stay. Stay my ass. Kicking me out, that is what this life did to me.

My muse? Long gone. Temporary or forever? I don't know. I really do not know. That one person, I bet everything that I have left, my new beginning and to be my last. I know I'm losing that person. Should I run and catch that person? Or should I let that person walk away?
Truth is, my mind said something else and the heart says something else. Contradiction is amusing. Nothing is quite the same now.

God tell, He will never put someone into a place or state that they could not walk out alive, surviving the obstacles. Dear God, you heard me the best. Shall I be stronger, or lose this fight, it is all up to You.

DARK LADY DEVINITY

Love and Hate. The two most passionate, controlling and confusing emotions in the human heart. It is so easy to love someone, even when they hurt you, and so hard to make yourself hate them when hate would protect you. However, the opposite is true too. It is just so hard to start loving someone when you have hated them for so long. Be it romantic love, family love, friendship or the sheer love of life. For once you start hating someone, it takes over your mind, your sense, your vision. You cannot see any good in someone you hate. You make assumptions about them, make them out to be cruel, evil, black-hearted. And yet, to finally get the chance to see past your hatred, to no longer have it control you and your passions, then you can start loving them. It doesn't matter what kind of love either. 

And yet, it seems that the greatest obstacle in a world of love and hate is the other person. It is so hard to start loving someone you used to hate. However, what happened when they do not love you in return?

Those last words

Take Care
I'll Miss You :)

.

I knew today is gonna come no matter what I did to avoid it. I know this hurts. I did saw this coming. I know and I know..yet I'm being a foolish again. This hurts. Real hurts. Deep down, double deep down, I don't know. I have no words that can explain. Just I really need someone to talk to. This really hurt. Can someone please invent something, a thing that can connect me with someone who died already. I need someone to talk to. I have no one, now.

random random random thoughts

My thought say:

I dreamed of a wedding in an elaborate elegance, A place filled with the people who we love most, there goes my family and friends, standing and sitting with laughs and smiles. Oh yes, I am blessed. I asked him what kind of a wedding he wished for, 

He said, one that would make me his wife.

My wedding, *yes, I'm writing about my wedding. finally :)* is gonna be the greatest sweetest loveliest moment in my life. It will be surrounded by glitters of happiness, tied with love and sprinkled by gratitude

and yes of course! it's gonna be all about converse's sneakers and vintage!

Sharing the old-me, back in 09. We were there before! Like, almost there..just, we'd never know how to put those in words.

#Credit to Azim for the pic

It isn't hurt to build a dream, initiate it, and well..hoping that it will goes according to my tiny bit of dream's spark, to eventually coming to reality.


PS: Been a while since my last post. I know I know..I'll start writing again. I miss you...

so much has gone UNSAID

FIRST

click me :)

And SOMETIMES:

I'm here :)

BECAUSE they made me remembered you and

here!

but, YOU KNOW WHAT

come get me :)

yet I still hope and

&

i need to do this :(

two is always better than one :)

:)

remembered the last story you told me?

I found it :)

u should thank me 

*puas sudah bejiwang*

 iJ :)

LiKE Or L0Ve?

In front of the person U love

your heart beats faster

but in front of the person U like

U get happy

In front of the person U love

winter seems like spring

but,in front of the person U like

winter is just a beautiful winter

if ..

U look into the eyes of the one U love

U will blush..^_^ but

if..

U look into the eyes of the one that U like

U smile :)

In front of the person that U love

U can't say everything in your mind X_x

but..in front of the person U like..U can :D

In front of the person U love..

U tend to get shy

but..in front of the person U like

U can show your own self

The person U love,comes into your mind every 2 minutes ?_?

U can't look straight into the eyes of the one U love, ^_*

but U can always smile into the eyes of the one U like.. :D

when the one that U love is crying..U will cry with them :(

but when the one that U like is crying..U end up comforting :B

The feeling of love starts from the eye 

AND

the feeling of like starts from the ears..

sO..

if U are trying to stop liking a person U used to like

all U need to do is cover your ears..

but

if U try to close your eyes

love turns into drops of tears

and

remains in your heart forever :)

iJ :)